49 Day Honesty Challenge.
  • Day 10.

Something is wrong. First guy you turn too?

Heavy B! ;)

49 Day Honesty Challenge.
  • Day 4.

Where did you meet your crush?

He isn’t such a crush anymore even though he still makes my cheeks color scarlet and my heart beat in a funny little dance.I met him at a tattoo shop!

I know,I know.

My Tumblr and Facebook are lacking in anything positive in the past two days.It’s nothing but me complaining about wanting my boyfriend or me just complaining in general.Bear with me you guys.I’m going through some things and this has been one of my very limited outlets.I cut ties with a friend yesterday…It was needed.I’ve been saying I was going to do it but, I was just stalling.I had to do this for me.

The way I feel about Brandon outweighs my other wants.I didn’t like how I felt in that situation and I was doing nothing but hurting the one person I promised I wouldn’t.I feel worthless for hurting him.Everything we’re going through now is my fault…=,(

I just want to make it better and I don’t know how.I love him and I want to be with him.I’ve spent another night wondering if I’m going to have him when I wake up or not.I hate that feeling.I wanted to be in his bed snoozing away tonight.I’m expecting too much from him but, it’s so hard not too.

It was hard to let him go when he hugged me.I don’t want it to be the last one.I don’t want to go without being able to look into his eyes and see how much he cares all laid out right in front of me.I don’t like the pain I saw today.I just wanted to take it all away.I’d willingly and happily take all that pain if it was possible…..

I’m scared.